Goodbye Is My New High

Heads up and eyes high

Into the clouds, into the blue

And yet falling as if for a fallen angel

I am falling, have fallen, for you

But they all wonder why



Mouth agape, heaving, breathing, and speaking

To your back, your shadow, and your silhouette

My words are carried on the wind

The you you’re not, the one I can’t forget

Such volume; the crying and screaming



How many happy pills and forgotten thrills

To look up and see my betters

And love, yes love Big Brother

Acknowledging, you and I will never be together

Is this so far or very near?



Hotter and harder, straighter and higher

And I want to bury “it”

Deep and so down below

How I am truly sick

For you my one desire



But I will only ever rise a few feet

Never will I be one to fly

Or live truly free… but in death

Does anyone ask or cry

Where it is I now sleep



As high as I’ve ever been

I have only set out to go lower

Where you say and he says I belong

Never to fly, climb, or jump; only fall regardless

Why is this so very wrong?

To love you girl, never knowing your world

Such is my greatest sin



To look so very high

And I live even lower

Goodbye Is My New High



Copyright © 2011, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.