Lesson 112 ~Before I'm Broken~

Sunday, July 03, 2011

Hey Lady Lu…
How often I have thought the thought and dreamed the dream that I had never been born; surely it would beat what I am today, the “Hurt” I feel. Those who don’t learn from history right but all I can remember is today; to try and understand yesterday would only go to prove that today really is worse and that I am possibly a day away from the inevitable.

Today something else breaks, another part of me disappears, something that I count on, want, need, and desire and to try and name it well; “My Own Prison” and all that. Tomorrow what will be breaking; is there anything more to lose I ask and even when I think not, wait and we shall see. I know you’re asking what brought this on Luna, call it cold feet, maybe a registry error, maybe it’s only me as always.

I’m broke for life I’m afraid; yeah you could say this is about money, more to the point “Power” but without money hell I would take those problems any day. It’s because I’m broken and there is no fixing me, not even for Chrissy; do you know what it’s like to want to be better but I must have “Hearing Damage” the girl told me no, trust me I heard that I’m just talking about that silence before hand or what I thought of as silence. Brings me to my conclusion that there should have never been a before because if there wasn’t there would be no broken me… yeah where was my terminator?

So what have I learned today other than not to write while watching the “Twilight Saga”, that before nothing, beats today’s nothing. Luna, for a final thought, if I weren’t broke I wouldn’t be broken, I wouldn’t break but I would be doing some breaking.

LATE

~Before I'm Broken~

Break
When I’m awake
Life’s no dream
Please
Just let me sleep

Breaking
No future making
All the days
Someday
This is no way

Broke
With no hope
No gold
To hold
And yet I’m sold

Broken
A token
Paying for
More
Yet the score

Before
And evermore
Stays zero
Yet I’m the hero
Of this tale
I tell
I won’t be saved
From this fate

To not be awoken
Before I’m Broken

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